Praise and Thanksgiving

The LORD is my strength and shield. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving. Psalm 28:7

Hello again!  Long, long time no visit.  I have been on the go and simply not taken the time to blog.   Fortunately, today I have made time.  I have lost 4.8 lbs. and that is all, but I will take it.  I am thankful for every day and for every achievement.  I do not have a steady exercise regiment yet.  I know when I do that, things will take off.  Honestly, I am moving forward, slowly but surely.  I am still being conscience of what I eat.  I eat anything but not in an over abundance.  I am still working "step by step" and "day by day"!  I am happy and praising God for the opportunity to face this challenge with my health and strength!  I encourage anyone who is still reading this, be faithful and don't try to do things all at once in a sprint or you will lose your momentum.  Build up, making small goals and doing  whatever it is you have to do one step at a time and one day at a time. 

Blessings.

Yet Holding On

¹³ Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, ¹⁴ I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

I have probably already used this scripture.  I wanted to let you all know that I am "Yet Holding On", to my faith and to the faith that will get me through this 100 lb journey.  I am finally up and exercising and growing stronger daily.  I don't feel any smaller and have not weighed in but I feel great.  Had a lady today say I looked like I was losing weight. So, that made me feel good.  My eating could be better but it is definitely better than when I began.  As I have said from the start.  I will do things slowly.  This is not a race but the rest of my life.  This is not a journey to be seen and impress anyone but one to take care of the temple that I have been given that I may remain healthy and be able to accomplish all that God sets before me.  I am so excited.  I will continue to keep you updated.  Stay encouraged and know that whatever your journey, nothing is too hard when you keep God first.  Love and blessings to you all!  (Remember me in your prayers.)

Back again-brief update.

...weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning  Pslam 30:5

Just quickly checking in. The scripture above is what is in my heart right now as this day winds down.  It has been interesting to say the least.  Anywho(and yes I said who),  I am still excited about this journey.  As of Tuesday, I am released to walk and exercise by my foot doctor.  On Wednesday I went for 3 mile walk (slowly but surely). I am on the go but I will check in soon with some real updates.   Blessings.

Perseverance!

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1

Perseverance is one of the main keys to success.  Giving up on a journey/task is the easy way out and yields no results.   If we want results, we must indeed keep pressing in and on until we accomplish our goal and then keep going!  This is so true in my instance.  For weight loss, it is not a momentary journey but a lifelong journey.  I am committed to making it to my 100lb journey and it is my prayer that you will be inspired to persevere and move forward towards whatever goal you have for yourself. 

Though my blogging is not daily, I will keep updating it as I can.  I have been on the go and by the time I end my day I fall out asleep.  I am stealing a moment now to drop in to let you know what is going on with me. 

So, it has been a couple of weeks since I updated you.  I have been getting my body moving more and more, though I am not yet released to walking for exercise and have to rest my foot often.  I have been cutting down on my eating.  When I eat I try to eat more vergy's  than anything and if I am still hungry, I eat more vegy's instead of meat or junk.  I have learned that a good breakfast of substance makes me feel full and helps me to not be hungry through the day.  I eat oatmeal and raisins most mornings.  Sometimes I eat cheerios.  I know that I have much work to do with my eating habits and with doing all that it takes to loss such a large amount of weight but my confidence is in the LORD and I can't wait to get there. 

Continue to pray for me!  Blessings.

Time for change up?

Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord...Acts 3:19

I must confess, repent and turn from my sins.  Though not often discussed, gluttony is one of the many excesses that we have that is not something we should be found doing.  I have had years of this.  Now that I am taking inventory of my life and really making great changes and efforts to no longer be an avid gluttonalist (no such word--made it up) reality has set in.  Fact is, yes I am doing way better than I was, but I am still not doing good and I HAVE TO DO MORE.

I think the saying is, "If you want to see something different then you must do something different".  I felt like I was seeing results since I have been up and about.  My clothing fits better and things seem to be shaping up....NOTICE, I said seem to be.  I went to the Doctor yesterday and I have not lost a pound.  I have actually gained 3.  So, now that I am still not to be exercising even lightly, it is time to cut away some food and do things that don't involve my foot.  With the quote at the beginning in mind, I have to do something different.  I am not going to fail at this.  I know that it will take time but upward is not the direction I am seeking to go in this 100lb journey.  Someone asked me to share a journey with them on a 60 day fast for summer of sweets and junk.  Sounds like a plan for a kick start to my body moving towards my goal - in the correct direction. I am determined and I will succeed with time.  It will take hard work, much effort, and time.  Please continue to pray for me and I will keep you posted. 

This is the journey of my lifetime! 

Blessings.

Day 65 - Busy, busy, busy.

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Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give. Galatians 6:9


I have had many days of not counting calories and am still awaiting the Dr's permission to exercise but I will not quit. I refuse to allow myself to grow weary because I know that God's word is true and I shall reap if I do not give up.  I encourage you all to do the same.  It may take some time, trial and error and be very difficult but you must continue in order to reap the whatever your harvest is. 

Blessings.

Day 66- Huhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation. Isaiah 12:2

It has been a challenge for me to blog often as I have been trying to do it at night before bed.  That has to change.  I have been clunking out by the time night comes.  Mornings are just better anyway.  Morning time gives me fresh perspective and begins my day with the goal that I have set before myself.

Huhhhhhhhh is what came to my mind when I thought of what to title today's blog.  I woke early this morning and have done many things by this point, and it is on 7:58am.  My day is just beginning.  I am working to get my house in order because I will be on the go at 10.  Yeah, On my mark..get set...GO; that kinda GO!  That is not a sigh of misery but one of, where do I begin.  The kids school year is winding down and there are non-stop events.  Couple that with life and a busy woman am I but I am loving every minute of it. 

We often use business as an excuse to not take care of ourselves.  We don't have time to exercise but we can watch and hour long TV show while sitting on our duffs.  We can't eat right because we are on the go and just don't have the resources to do what needs to be done so instead of trying we make no efforts at all.  I am here today to say, "All you have to do is start and try!"  Failure comes when we don't try and/or quit trying.   We have become such a sedentary people.  We do what we have to do but when it comes to our needs we short change ourselves.   How beneficial would it be if instead of just sitting on the couch watching TV you began to do exercises such as sit ups, jumping jacks or leg lifts or keep it simple with arm raises.

I spoke to someone yesterday who said something amazing.  She said though we volunteer for things we need to begin to move in it as if our next meal depended on it (which is so true).  But my thought today goes to what if I done this with weight loss.  Passionately not passively.  What if you did that with what you are working towards.  Not because you need to, not because you have to but out of  sheer willingness and determination.

I encourage you to take your GO to the next level by investing in taking care of you and by living passionately and allowing God to truly step in as he is your strength and your song.  If you have not yet gotten to know God, he can be your salvation too.  Seek Him for who He is and you will find what you need!   

Blessings.

Holiday Weekend

So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God. 1Corinthians 10:31

Holiday Weekend + BBQ = GOOD EATS!  Eating more than normal but not as much as I use to eat.  I had a small deer tenderloin (YUM) and 1/4 piece of pork steak with baked beans and cole slaw.  I dare not calorie count but I will be accountable for what I eat.  The kids and I are making oatmeal raisin cookies as our sweet treat for the weekend.  The best part of this weekend is being with my family who all love the LORD.  Glory be to God today and forever more!  Blessings.

Day 69- temptation

"Keep alert and pray. Otherwise temptation will overpower you. For though the spirit is willing enough, the body is weak!" (NLT)  Matthew 26:41
 
Fact: Temptation is all around us.  My temptations involve a pantry full of junk.  Cookies with chocolate in the middle, brownies, gummie candies, chips...need I go on.  The important part is what I do with them.  And lately, I eat them! Yeah, I said it, I have been eating bad things. 

While preparing my mind for my upcoming Dr's visit in which I will most likely be released to begin exercising my logic goes to, "eat like you want right now because you will need to be on the strait and narrow when you begin to exercise to get the best benefits".  EXCUSE!   If I want to see something different then I must do something different.  I have to eat good and not overdo eating anything.   MODERATION.... pray my strength:).

Other than the junk this last week I have not been doing too terrible.  I am encouraged.  One day at a time with much prayer.  That is how I stayed strong in the beginning but I kind of whittled away from praying over everything that I consider putting in my mouth.  It really made a difference when I did pray over everything because I would resist the temptation of things that I did not need.  The scripture at the top says it all and I am a witness that it works.  So I say again...whatever your journey...this scripture principal can work for your situation. 

Blessings.

Day 62-Day by Day, by Day!

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Philippians 3:12

Though time keeps moving forward and the days turn to nights,
I have determined in my mind to continue to fight the good fight.
I will keep focus of the goal that is before me,
100 lbs of weight loss is what I'll one day see. 
Will it be easy, "No" of course it won't be,
but this journey is what I have chose and I Believe..
I believe in my God who I am walking through this with,
I believe I will push toward this goal every day that I live.
Not quickly but slowly with my head held high,
through the days that I laugh successfully and the ones that I have to cry.
This journey is not for the faint at heart,
But it is for everyone who's willing to go day by day and just start.
Begin the journey over every morning new,
Make this a journey that you complete for you.  
I have not obtained my goal or even come close,
 but this time around the thing I focus on the most,
 is merely trying and not giving up,
making good choices so that I can rise above. 
Above failure, disappointment and expectations I set too high,
the best part about this journey is I just have to continue to try. 
There is no failure, I will continue this until I am old. 
Failure comes in not trying and not moving toward my goal.  
Keep trying, move forward, you can do it my friend.
Even when you have gone backwards, dust off and try it again!  erigneycreations

I have not had the best last couple of weeks with my eating.  I am now able to get out of the house and not taking the steps I need to so that I can be prepared to eat good for every meal.  With each journey out of the house I am exhausted and then come home to do something simple so I can sit and rest my foot.  I realize that this has to stop in order for me to see the results that I want.  I have to break my body down by fasting and start over again when I reach the point I have now of eating whatever I want.  Once I fast then I can better handle the pressures of saying no to the things that are unhealthy.  ON A POSITIVE NOTE: One thing that I have done is replaced my sweet craving snacks with yogurt.  Yogurt is actually very sweet and satisfying.  It is one step in the path of many changes that are yet to come.  Keep praying for me and be encouraged in your journey remembering that many small changes can make big ones.  Blessings.

Praise God

 And my tongue shall speak of your righteousness and of your praise all the day long.  Psalms 35:28

Praise be to God almighty who is faithful, good and just.  I am walking and in two shoes now! Though it will still take time to fully recover, I am so grateful to God my healer who has blessed me to make it this far.  Only two more weeks until I am released by my Dr. to fully move into normal activities and I can't wait. 

It is funny that after a life circumstance that puts you at a standstill you gain a new appreciation and passion for the everyday things of life.  I long to exercise.  My request to those of you reading is that you pray with me that God allow that passion for exercise to live for the rest of my days.  Notice, I did not say let it last until I reach my goal.  The fact is, I want to make life changes not reach the goal and stop.  

How has my journey been lately....
My journey has been slow.  I have not been faithful to eating low calorie meals.  Today was one of the first days that I overindulge in anything.  I had Olive Garden for lunch and I will just say two words...."BREAD STICKS".  I do know that I have to learn  to be disciplined even when I splurge (which I was not good with today).  Moderation is the word for the day. 

On a good note....
Now that I am up and moving I am seeing body changes.  I have not weighed but I definitely see a difference in the way my clothing fits now and how it fit when I was sitting on the couch full time.  I have to give thanks to God for that.  I have much work to do in order to reach my goal.  Please pray for me.

The Body

What? Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?  For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit which are God's.  1Corinthians 6:19-20

Nuggets to think on:

How does one glorify God in the body?  Well, I don't have all of the answers but I imagine that taking care of the body would be a great start. 

I have spent time reflecting on the past and how I made it to be the weight that I am now.  During my last pregnancy I gained around 80lbs and I stayed there after having the baby.  That was 11 years ago.  In the last 11 years I have tried many things to lose weight.  I just wanted to look good, feel good and be skinny. I prayed many a times for the Lord's help to lose weight.  As I grew in my walk with God, I came to a realization that I was seeking weight loss all that time for the absolute wrong reason. 

My body is the temple of the Holy Ghost.  It is a vessel that has been entrusted to me while I am here on this Earth.  It is my responsibility to take care of this temple in order to be healthy that I may fulfill what it is God has set before me to do.  So, this time around I pray but for the right reason and I believe that God is enabling me to make the life changes necessary to be successful in my weight loss that I my indeed glorify Him in my body and spirit which are Gods.

What are you seeking God for?  Are your desires for seeking this to glorify self or to honor and glorify God?  Meditate on these questions as you spend time in prayer for your specific situation.

Prayer:
May every person that reads this be strengthened to carryout whatever journey you have placed before them.  May you show them your way and your will for each specific situation and allow those that seek you to find peace and rest in you.  May you let them see you in every aspect of life that they may remember to honor you at all times. In Jesus' precious name I ask this, Amen.

Get Back Up Again...

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Philippians 3:12

Sorry that I stayed away so long.  There was a death in the family and we left town for a bit but I am back now.  Well....this was the worst eating week for me in a very long time.  In traveling and visiting my family back home....I snacked the entire weekend on JUNK!  Chips, popcorn, fast food on the go.  No calorie counting at all.  I could wallow in it and make the old excuse, "I messed up so I may as well eat what I want".  But the difference in the past dieting and this time choosing to change is that when I fail, I get back up again. 

Yes, as I reflect, I am disappointed that after all the discipline I totally ignored doing what will help me accomplish my goal.  But, my life goes on and I am not going to beat myself up.  I use to be my own worst critic but now I know that the emotion that use to come when I failed doesn't help.  What helps is moving forward and that is exactly what I plan to do. 

There is no magic to accomplishing goals.  It takes hard work and dedication.  When you fall short don't be dismayed.  Do something about it. 

Please keep me in prayer on this journey.  My prayer for all of you is that you continue to move forward in whatever journey you are on and that you remember to seek God through it. 

Press On.

Day 37-Worship and Ice Cream

Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt his name together.  Psalm 34:3

Today was one of those days that you long for and that you wish would never end. Began with prayer and filled with praise.  A day filled with the presence of the LORD. 

I spent the later part of the evening listening to YouTube music.  Worship songs.  I began singing them and then thought, let me let the professionals do join me, so I turned on the computer.  The song that was in my spirit was one that I hadn't heard in years, Lord prepare me to be a sanctuary...."pure and holy, tried and true. And with Thanksgiving, I'll be your living, sanctuary for you". Throughout the evening I listened to Alpha and Omega, Worthy Is the Lamb and one of my all time favorites There is a River (that never shall run dry).  I ended the night with another of my old time, all time favorites What a Day that will Be and ice cream. 

Okay, I eased that word ice cream in there.  My journey to lose weight is not one of doing without sweets. It is one of moderation and life change.  How does this work with ice cream.  In the past, ice cream for me would involve a large cereal bowl and a heaping pile that not only filled the bowl but stood up out of it.  A helpful adjustment for my family has been to not buy ice cream in large quantities.  When we want ice cream we travel up the street to the golden arches and pay $1 for the perfect serving of soft serve.  It would probably not be what would be considered a true serving via the health-nut-goo-roo-professional-nutritionist but it is wayyyyyy less than what I would normally have, fulfilling and a good choice for this stage in my life and my journey.   Moderation!

So how am I doing over all.  I am indeed a work in progress.  There are 5 people in my home, including me.  I can use the age old excuse that it is expensive and difficult to make healthy food for me and still cook for the rest of the family, but this time that is not happening.  I am going slowly and making healthier, better choices for the entire family.  As I am the only one home in the daytime, I have the privilege of making food that is just for me which benefits me greatly.  My other choice that I have made to help me is, as I said before, moderation.  I am at this time praying that God help me with patience as I am so ready to get moving.  I have not weighed again but my clothing fits better and my belly is not sticking out as far as it was when I began (just keeping it real). 

THIS JOURNEY IS ONE DAY AT A TIME, ONE STEP AT A TIME AS IT IS A LIFE CHANGE NOT A QUICK FIX.  I encourage you all to do this to accomplish whatever your goal is.  It is many small changes that make great things happen.  Look at history.  A lady didn't give up her seat on the bus, a man had a dream, and you..... fill in the blank.  What will you do to change your destiny?  As the saying goes, "If you want something different you have to do something different".

Whatever you choose to do to accomplish your goal make worship a part of it.  There is nothing like spending time Worshiping the LORD.  Study it, meditate on it, and just do it as the LORD our God is worthy!

May you all be blessed and uplifted. 

God's Blessings.

Day 36- Encouragement

Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.  Isaiah 41:10

I have not run away and quit this journey.  I am here and will be until this journey is completed.  I won't write everyday but will continue to share with you often.   Today's word is...."Encouragement".

It is easy to become discouraged in life, especially when you are working towards a goal and don't get right now results.  But we must learn to hold onto to the Word of God and it's truths.  This scripture from Isaiah is one that brings encouragement to me when I read it and really slow down to dissect and chew on it.  God is with us and strengthens us/helps us/upholds us....knowing this is encouragement. 

Whatever the journey, we are not alone ("though I walk through the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for though are with me"Psalm 23:4)! Just as I am trusting God to strengthen me in my weak times and know that He will be with me through this journey, you can as well.  You see the plan is to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future according to Jeremiah 29:11. 

The real deal is, the journey will not always be smiles and sunshine and rainbows.  There will be days that you feel like throwing in the towel.  There will be days that you feel like crying.  There will be days that you don't feel victorious and there will simply be days that you absolutely fail!  The fact is, we can not live by our feelings.  When you do not feel that you are where you should be my friends, get up, dust off and reposition yourself while you continue to move forward.  The Bible tells us that there will be trouble, but to fear not as He has overcome the world (John 16:33). 

BE ENCOURAGED!

Day 30- A Good Word for Life

If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land. 2 Chronicles 7:14


I love this scripture!  This scripture has been in my heart for a long time as a NOW WORD for all of us. A now Word to do just what this scripture says!  Tying this in to whatever journey you are on.  Take it for just what it says and apply it. 

BE HUMBLE. PRAY. SEEK THE LORD'S FACE.  TURN FROM EVIL (WHATEVER YOU NEED TO TURN FROM).  HE WILL HEAR FROM HEAVEN(HE WILL HEAR OUR PRAYER/CRY), FORGIVE OUR SIN(HELP US MOVE PASS WHATEVER IT IS) AND HEAL OUR LAND(US/OUR SITUATION). 

This does not mean it will be easy or any less of a journey.  But we can move forward with the peace that God gives and knowing that God is in control. 

Today I want to share something that I learned from my Dr.  I have actually been trying to increase my caloric intake because I came to the realization that I was way below the recommendations. Well, with my Dr's approval, I can continue to keep my calories low as long as my meals are balanced and I am getting enough protein.  Currently, I eat quite a bit but it has very little caloric value and a great deal of health benefits so it is doable.  I am not advising anyone else to do this without consulting a Dr. first but know that you can cut down calories under your Dr's supervision. 

So, what do I eat?  I eat a lot of black beans in everything!  I drain and rinse them and cook them in plain water (no salt or anything).  I load them with bell pepper, onion, mushrooms, rotel and salsa. I eat boiled eggs.  I eat a lot of fruits and vegys which have very low caloric value.  I eat a normal dinner, but in very small portions.  My main goal is to make sure that I am not hungry when dinner comes so I don't over eat but I get to enjoy real food.  And as you have heard a million times before, I drink a lot of water.

Now, you may see me in a few days or a week and say,"she don't look like she is losing weight" and to that I say, "Slow and steady wins the race".  In time, In time.  I am not able to fully exercise, but just imagine what will happen when I can.  I am so excited for this journey. 

My prayer is for you all reading this that whatever your journey you find a way to let it excite you.  Change takes work and is not always easy but know that in due season you will reap if you faint not.

Blessings.

Day 29 - Sacrifice

“You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:6-8 NIV

No greater sacrifice can be made nor compared to the sacrifice that Christ made for us.  It is from this sacrifice that I draw inspiration and strength for my daily life.  Knowing that though so undeserved Christ sacrificed because of LOVE.  How do I tie this into my 100lb Journey? This helps to answer the WHY of my journey.

Often times we strive for goals for all the wrong reasons, especially losing weight.  We change because of what the world thinks, because of fads and trends.  We alter our life because of what someone says or to please those around us.  We even make changes for vanities sake.  For me, I have come to the realization that all of these things that we begin change for don't motivate us to continue and complete our goals. 

I chose to change because of sacrifice.   Here me correctly...BECAUSE OF not to sacrifice.  You see, Jesus sacrificed His life for us that we may LIVE for Him.  In order to LIVE for Him to the fullest I realize that I have to be able to operate at my highest capacity.  My highest capacity means while being the best me that I can.  Now, understand, this does not mean that to be at my highest capacity I have to be skinny.  This means that I have to be fully aware, alert and doing what I can to take care of the temple that has been entrusted to me so that I can be most effective as I am about my Father's business.  Reality: years of not doing living healthy on purpose got me here and thanks to the grace of God repentance and turning from bad habits releases me from it, not the weight loss.  The weight loss is a goal and a perk to properly nourishing and exercising my temple so that I can be most effective in what is set before me to do.

It is easy to reference the sacrifice we make when we give up junk and choose to live a healthier life when this is in fact not sacrifice but merely making good choices.  The sacrifice to focus on when trying to make any life changes is the one that Christ made on the cross.  This along with His guiding Holy Spirit and the Word of God can help us through any situation.  

Blessings.

Day 27- Failure?

He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Matthew 28:6
Happy Easter! This is the weekend that we begin with Good Friday and the memory of Christ's sacrifice on the Cross for each of us and then top off with Christ's Resurrection 3 days later!  This is an awesome time to stop and remember all that was given for each of us!  This is also a holiday that we fix a bunch of food, come together and EAT!

I said I would share the good, the bad and the ugly. Well, this weekend I have it to share.  I took this weekend as cheat time because it is the holiday.  I had orange cinnamon rolls yesterday, I had a Hershey's Chocolate bar and I had two cupcakes!  Oh it was good but today I woke feeling miserable.  My head hurt and I felt so sluggish which is what sweets always do to me but in the past I never cared because I liked the immediate feel good, taste good  mmmmmmm. 

So, today.  The real holiday I had a great dinner of ham, potatoes (with bacon, sour cream, and cheese), green bean, and baked beans.  I had gum (which I am not supposed to chew because of ear problems).  I had yeast rolls.  I had peeps!  I had a cup of frozen fruit for desert!  1 Billion calories....Okay, not really but a lot of calories and I have to own it ALL!

This is obviously not something that can be done every weekend if weight loss is truly my goal.  This is where I have to choose to set limits and boundaries and be disciplined. Believe it or not, with all the foods that I mentioned having above I did not eat as much as I use to on the holidays.  This is the beginning.  I have heard it said, "If you want something different then you have to do something different" (unknown).  This holds true for weight loss and habits.  I may not have done great this holiday weekend with my eating, but it was better than it use to be and I plan to get better and better.   

One of the things that I done differently was eating everything in very small portions.  Truth be told, I was full when I finished my plate and it was not heaped up like I would have had it in the past.  I did have sweets but I did not finish the dish just because it was there.  I took my time and enjoyed t he portion I had instead of racing and eating all that I could until there was no more. 

...today's failure....

My failure for today was the yeast rolls.  I ate 6 throughout the day today and I know that bread in abundance is not good!  But, I don't beat myself up!  I acknowledge it and choose to move forward with the mindset not to do this again.  Realistically, I know that when the opportunity arises again I have to keep this in mind from the start to be successful.  Making a decision mid meal does not work for me.  I know myself and have to set boundaries up front. 

...moving forward....

My plan... moving forward this week I plan to begin with fasting to cleanse my mind and body after this segment of holiday eating.  Fasting helps me to gain perspective of everything in my life and as I make the sacrifice of fasting I feel empowered and refreshed to put things into perspective and to move forward.  I then plan to look forward and not back.  In the past I would have used a bad day of eating as an excuse not to continue the journey and to give up.  Something different....I am determined and continuing this journey to lose 100lbs because I know that I can do it with God!

....Encouragement for you...

Whatever goal you have before you, "YOU CAN DO IT WITH GOD ON YOUR SIDE".  One day at a time.  If you mess up, dust off and keep pushing forward.  You only truly fail when you stop trying!

God's Blessings.

Dave 25- Vanity

Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity. Ecclesiastes 1:2

I myself find this to be a very true statement.  All is vanity or as the NIV Bible says "Meaningless".   Today was a day of feelings and emotions.  Truth be told, I sometimes wonder why in the world we had to have them.  Let me give you some background and then tell you about today.

I have spent 11 years at the exact same weight.  I hadn't gained and I hadn't lost any weight (despite the numerous attempts).  In October of 2011,  a foot condition that I had battled with before returned and this time sat me down for several months.  After numerous attempts to correct the problem surgery became necessary, which is the surgery I just had 2 weeks ago.   Anywho...(yes, I said who)...during this 6 month stretch of Dr. recommended foot elevation and not being able to hardly walk most days....this sister gained a whopping 15lbs.

....Back to today..... 

So, after months of sweats and pjs, today I decided to wear real clothes.  I put on my jeans and found out where I gained my weight at as I pulled them up and had to force them over the great rumpbehinya (or shall I say behindme).  The thighs of my pants were also so "Skintastic".  This was so to the point that though it was not a problem to fasten them, I was not being seen by anyone in them.  This brought me to that place that anyone struggling with weight has been a million times.

....In the past......

In my past today would have sunk me.  I would have cried, been ashamed, and let it ruin my entire day as I wondered what people thought of me because I DID NOT LIKE ME!  You heard it right.  There was a time in my life that I hated what I saw in the mirror, that I was ashamed of myself and that I did not possibly understand how the entire world did not see the same thing that I saw and if my pants didn't fit I acted as if it were the end of the world.

What changed me?  God changed me!  I knew God's Word to be true and I begin to studied who the Word says that we are to have a foundation to stand on when I needed encouraging.  Along the way, God showed me how much he valued me.  I then began to speak the Word that I had studied and had taken notes on each time that I felt down on myself.  The Holy Spirit had shown me that if I lost weight, it would not make me feel any better because the real battle was in my mind and that had to be conquered first.  God began to change my thinking and each time an occasion arose for negative thinking, I quoted the scripture and it brought me through.  I then learned that there were so many others with the same problem I had of devaluing themselves as we looked to the standards set on TV instead of finding their true value in God's Word.  With the Holy Spirit's guidance I wrote a series on loving yourself.  This was a major step in my healing.

...Back to today....

So, I am at the place of my pants are too tight and I know it ain't right!  Instead of handling it like in the past....I handled it the way that wisdom taught me to handle it so that I can always have victory.  I took off the jeans and dressed all the way up so that I would look good, feel good and leave no room for the enemy as I reminded myself that it was all vanity and I encouraged myself!  I told myself that I would not allow my clothing to dictate my mental or emotional state of being.  You see, I learned years ago that looking good can make you feel good so I don't worry about the occasion when I come to one of these moments, I just dress up.  I dress up and I don't give myself time to even ponder on the meaningless event of the day. (Thinking on things and replaying them in your mind is like packing a back and the more times you replay it the more junk you are putting in it and then you carry it around with you.  When you learn to let it go, there is no baggage and you can freely move forward.)

God loves us (John 3:16) and he created us for his pleasure(Colossians 1:16).  There is no where in the Bible where it says that if you are overweight, bald or have any other physical blemish that He will stop loving you.  God loves you and this is what matters!  I encourage each of you to learn to love yourself as you study who God says we are.  Learn to focus on what does matter, God!

Blessings. 

Day 24- Who do you live for?

“For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.” 2 Corinthians 5:14-15 NIV

I have to take time to thank God for the sacrifice of his Son and also for the Resurrection as head into the Easter weekend. There are many thoughts that come to my mind as I read the scripture here today.
Do we truly live our lives as if this scripture is true?  What does Christ's love compel us to?  Are you compelled?  Who do you live for?  Do you live for yourself?

I have lived my life for myself in the past but am thankful that I grew to know who I truly should live for.  Funny part is....when we think we have completely done something we wake up to realize that we still have work to do in that area.  You see, my old eating habits....that was still a part of me living for me.  Me not taking time to take care of my temple.... that was me not thinking of who I am living for. 

We pray before we eat, but what do we pray? Is it a repetitive, ritualistic prayer or one that speaks to the need of the moment before we give thanks and nourish our bodies.  This is one of the places that I have taken time to adjust in.  I make the prayers intentional and ask for the Lord's help to eat to live and not live to eat or whatever the need is at that moment as I know that it is only through him that I will succeed. In what area do you need to slow down and prayerfully seek God in that you may have the change that you need in your life? 

Acknowledge, ask forgiveness and turn away from whatever habit you need to let go of and live for God, not yourself.  Be ever learning, ever changing, ever growing....ALWAYS ROOM FOR CHANGE AND GROWTH!

May God bless you on your journey as you strive to live for him.  May you be compelled to do what he has for you to do!

Please continue to pray for me on this journey.

Until next time....

Day 23- Renewed Strength

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

Another encouraging Word for the journey.  As this is the slowest I have ever began losing weight with my not being able to be mobile, I know that I must do what I am supposed to do now and wait on the LORD for the timing of the rest.  I hold onto this scripture from Isaiah believing that when I grow weak that as long as I continue to wait on the LORD that my strength will indeed be renewed that I will not faint from this journey. 

I encourage all reading to do your part while you wait.  For me keeping a food journal as I count calories helps.  On the days that I have sweets or treats in keeping before me the caloric counts I am able to keep proper perspective and not overdo it.  This is a tremendous help to me and very different from any other time that I took this journey.  In my past I never wanted to keep a food journal because I never wanted to face the reality of what I was taking in.  Now I know the importance of acknowledging everything that I eat.  This falls again into the category of accountability.  You may never see my food journal but I see it and need it as a part of my journey. 

In order for me to succeed at this task before me of losing 100lbs I know that along with trusting, seeking, and waiting on the LORD I have to do my part.  It takes a made up mind and determination on my part that no matter what today brings that I will get up and give it a hundred percent again tomorrow. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute we must trust and wait upon the LORD.

God's Blessings.

Day 21- Faith and works....

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.  2 Corinthians 4:16-18th

This scripture speaks to me today as I put my mind and body to work on this journey to loose 100lbs.  This is not a walk that I can see my way through but indeed one that I will trust God through in faith.   The unseen....believing with every ounce of me that this is it because I am seeking God for every aspect of this journey.

While FAITH is a must, remember that FAITH and WORKS go hand in hand! I know that the Bible was not referring to weight loss but in this instance I use this to point out the realization that I have to work at this and not just fantasize expecting faith to do it all.  Whatever your journey, MAKE A PLAN AND GO FOR IT!

It also comes to my mind to encourage you to take steps to keep your goal in the forefront of your mind.  It is very easy to loose sight of a goal.  I encourage you to journal, blog, FB your journey as it will keep you focused daily and give you some accountability.  Even a journal puts whatever you are goaling for in front of you and keeps it there so that you can meditate on it, critic it, and decide where you can make changes at.  There is always room for improvement. 

I had a precious lady walk up to me the other Sunday at church and share a tip with me.  It meant the world that not only had she taken the time to read the blog but shared in my journey by telling me to check out an online site that helps you count your calories.  Share your journey as it is an opportunity to help yourself and others as we all have some type of journey that we are taking. 

Be blessed.

Day 19 "Praising my way through"

Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation.  Selah.  Psalm 68:19

God is so good!  He keeps blessing me. 

Mentally, he has given me the will and the wisdom, knowledge, and understanding to know what it is that I need to do and to trust him to help me through. 

Physically, in spite of my circumstances with pain in my foot, surgery, and recovery...he has given me the ability to do what is necessary to move forward in the journey.  God has preserved my health even though everything about my size says I should be unhealthy.

Spiritually, he has given me his Holy Spirit and Word which leads, guides, teaches, corrects and keeps me moving forward as I trust in Him. 

I could go on and on.  But for today, where ever you are in your situation...I encourage you to just begin to look at what God has done in your past and what He is doing now that you may fully trust Him with your future. 

We must be diligent in being faithful to doing our part as the Lord leads and be confident in knowing that we can make it through by counting our blessings and leaning and depending on God.

God Bless You!

Brand New Mercies-Day 18

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.  Lamentations 3:22-23

Hello again to all those that are hanging with me.  I have not written in a week but I have not given up.  I had my foot surgery and am feeling much better now.  I have been sleeping the days and nights away this past week recovering.  My abilities with my foot are growing more and more daily.  I am now exercising/stretching it, which is painful, but benefiting greatly. I will soon be able to exercise my whole body.

God has been so good and merciful throughout the process and throughout my life.  It is this mercy that is never ending that will take us all through whatever challenge(s) we face.  This is not a mercy to be taken for granted but to help us in realizing that God loves us and is there waiting with open arms whenever we are ready to turn from our wrong ways, repent and draw near to Him. 

Let me make this plain to you.  There is no big sin and little sin.  Sin is sin in God's eyes though we of the world try and make the obvious sins into such a big deal.  The numerous occasions of overeating that I have done in my lifetime, is it sin? It is when we allow it to become our god.  When we do it and do not use moderation as we should which causes us to neglect our bodies, which are in fact our temples. I read a great article that is beneficial for anyone questioning excess in their lives. It is filled with scripture and I encourage you to please go read it.  (http://www.bible.com/bibleanswers_result.php?id=165  )

As I have given this other reading to you, I will end what I have to say for today.  Be encouraged and don't give up my friends for you have brand new mercies every day and great is the LORD's faithfulness!  God's Blessings.

Day 9- make sure you have your oil

“Therefore keep watch, because you do not know the day or the hour." Matthew 25:13

My day today made me go read the story of the 10 virgins with the lamps and oil.  It immediately came to my mind as I sat to count calories, really thinking that though I had eaten out...I didn't make that worst of choices.  Well, in Mathew 25:1-13, 5 of the 10 virgins had enough oil as they were prepared for what was to come and 5 were unprepared with not enough oil and were left behind when the bridegroom came. This may seem like a strange comparison but please, read on.

How does this relate to what I am doing?  My heart crys out that I need to be prepared for even the occassions that are unexpected and I have to eat away from home.  I need to take time to find out the cost (calories in this instance) before making a decission if I want to be successful in what I am doing.  While I find that easy in other areas of my life, this is a wise principle to apply to every area of my life.  I must be watchful of all circumstances. 

So let me tell on myself.  I had to get my kids to the Doctor today and I had a rare opportunity to take my kids to early lunch at Mc D's (you know the place).  We don't eat out very much so this was a real treat and awesome to do as I have been in the house for so long!  So, I ordered smart(so I thought)...I know it is breaded but I can treat myself a little and it is chicken so it won't be that bad.  It is loaded with lettuce and tomatoe (and bacon-he,hee,hee...another treat).  I tell myself.  This will be more calories than I have been eating but it won't be that bad!  After early lunch with my kids I kid sat for my sister in law and had Mc D's again around 2:30.  But it was just a snack size meal.  I wanted to try the new chickn bites and let me splurge again, "I'll have a sweet tea with that!  Well, look at the damage below:
Add this up! (Hold on to your wig...)
Mc D's Bacon Ranch Crispy Chicken Sandwich 540 calories
Medium Fry 380 calories
12oz.(small)Shamrock Shake 540 calories(Only took a couple of sips litterally-NASTY: over guessing 150 calories)
Total for 10:30 brunch = 1070 (Almost all my calories for the day in one meal!)

McChickn Snk bites 310 calories
Small Fry 100 calories
Sweet Tea Large 280 calories
Total for 2:30 late evening snack = 690

Grand total = 1760 calories (Is there any room for dinner?)

What does this speak to me?  Know what you are eating before you eat it.  Don't realy on instinct or what you think, KNOW what you are putting into your body. It is my job to be prepared at all times, even when I am not home to eat.  It is my job to take care of and nourish this temple that I have!  I have to take the necessary steps to assure that I am making good choices and in this case it was as simple as asking for calorie totals befor ordering! 

So, that is the downside to my day but on the upside...I have lost 3.4lbs since I began this blog 9 days ago!  Praise be to God!  So on today, my  (mc)nugget to you:).   In order to be a success you must set yourself up for it by being aware.  Don't ever guess!  Make it your business to know!   As I would tell the 10 virgins and I tell you all today, "Make sure you have your oil!"  NO MORE EXCUSES!

A hard day! Day 8...

Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control. Psalms 25:28

Self-control is a key element in this journey.  Merriam Webster defines self-control as restraint exercised over one's own impulses, emotions, or desires. While God is our source and who we look to for help along this journey we must do our part.  We must make use self-control.

While self-control is important, it is also important that you set yourself up to succeed!  Preplan as much as possible.  Doing things like planning and preparing meals ahead of time helps keep you on target and not fishing for something to eat. Also, eating on a schedule helps to train you in eating to live and not living to eat.  When you begin to make it routine it is much easier to be disciplined. 

I found this website today that I want to share with those that are on this journey for weight loss.  I have not explored it all but what I have seen is great.  A little added encouragement for you all. The site is  takebackyourtemple.com . 

Now for me, today was a hard day.  I was very tired all day and when I am tire and trying to stay awake, I munch.  So I was trying to munch on things that were not too bad.  So, mental note for me, practice what you preach....I have to get me some healthy quick snacks to munch on.  I at a PB and J which was not bad for my calories and then I drank a cup of coffee, which always curbs my cravings.  All in all, my calories for today were still good but I know that I don't want to go through another day like this one so I better prepare and plan ahead for when I get the munchies.  My meals are planned, my snacks are planned, but munchie yummy never crossed my mind until today.  I went to the cabinet a thousand times and must put something in place so that this does not cause me to fail.  I encourage you all to do the same. Plan, plan, plan! 

I plan to succeed and the things that I am sharing with you coupled with total dependence of God is how I plan to do it!  Well, I have to check out for now.  Until next time, God's blessings. 

Day 7 of the rest of my life

What?  know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? 1Corinthians 6:19

The Word of God is true and our body is the temple of the Holy Ghost and we are not our own.   This is one of the many motivations for my healthy life change.  This should be a motivation for each of us as we see this verse for what it is.  We have the privelage of the comforting Holy Spirit taking up residency in us. How amazing is that. 

I want to express how important this journey and sharing it is to me.  I did not get to blog on last night due to an unforseen hospital trip with my son (who is fine now).  I like to wait until right before bed to blog because I can give you may reflection of the entire day and last night that did not work out so well.  I won't make it to blog everyday, but I will sure try.  I will be taking a break for a few days coming up the end of this week due to my having foot surgery (Please keep me in prayer) but I will be back at it as soon as I feel up to it. 

Anywho.....Today was a wonderful day.  I ate unplanned food because I did not take out the time to plan in advance (Not a good habit).  I did not eat until almost noon which is not good.  I know that it is important to have breakfast and bring your body out of fasting mode and I just did not eat. I got in my calories for the day and felt yucky after dinner.  I figured out that this was not because I have been eating so differently but that I had drank very little water today.

Today, while being a great day mentally and physically was not quite a win for me in this journey.  I know that I must take everything that I know and be dilligent with it in order to have the best results and I did not accomplish that today.  I am not sad as I know that tommorrow will be better.  This is what I want each of you to do.  Be encouraged and don't give up.  If you have a day that is not your best as long as there is blood running warm in your veins there is still another chance to get it right.  Be encouraged all and let God lead you to His best. 

Good night all.

Day 5 of the rest of my life

"This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh. Galatians 5:16

I like to begin each days blog with a scripture.  A portion of God's Word to help us as we go through.  This one I will write and put where I can see it as it reminds me what to do to not overindulge my flesh. So, What does it mean to walk in the Spirit?  I won't get all deep and definitive but simply put it in my words.  This means to go day by day, moment by moment  studying and praying continually to God for direction and guidance.  In this instance it means really praying before I have a meal or a piece of food.  Not the prayer for ritual that we do most of the time, but a prayer for His help and guidance as I nourish my body that I would eat to live and not live to eat.  It means that when I have eaten and feel that I want more, stopping to pray and ask the LORD's guidance on what to do that I may honor Him and this temple that He has so graciously blessed me with.  I could go on and on with what this scripture says to me.  See it is the flesh that desires more than is needed.  It is because I have trained that flesh in the wrong way that I now have to stop, repent, and turn from my former ways to retrain myself with good habits. Taking responsibility is a major part of this process and I take responsibility for where I am today.

So, on to my day.  Today is Saturday.  This is the day that I have chosen to be my cheat day.  This is the day that I won't count calories.  This is not the cue to go overboard but an opportunity to have a sweet treat if I want one while still eating in moderation to honor God by taking care of this body he gave me.  I ate Spaghetti, green beans, french bread (haven't had bread in a while), and then a Little Debbie banana cream cake for desert.  The idea with the sweat treat was that I have an individually portioned treat as not to over do it.  I also had some gummy snacks earlier today(my favorite and low calorie...if you get the right ones).  Aside from that I had Salsa and chips and  then cereal for breakfast.  As I am getting comfortable at calorie counting, I do know that my caloric intake was still not too bad today.  Watching my portions really makes a difference in how many calories I take in. 

Today was probably the most difficult for me and probably not for the reason that most would think.  Today was difficult because though I realize the importance and long term benefit of a cheat day, I have a nagging on the inside that says I don't deserve to cheat because I have been negligent with my eating long enough.   But then I focused on the reality of the cheat day being a reset day out of fasting mode (so my body does not store fat because it is not getting enough) and it also helps satisfy my cravings.  I also keep focus on the fact that I was still using moderation.  In order to make this journey a life long one I know that there are things that I have to put into place for proper balance and the cheat day is one of them.  What is most important is that I remain prayerful and allow the Holy Spirit to lead me on this journey.  This is the only what that I can make this 100lb journey. 

I appreciate those of you who are journeying with me and hope that each day you are able to grab hold of something said in my blog to encourage you and help you move forward in the journey that God has given you. 

Blessings.

Day 4 of the rest of my life

"Let us not grow weary in doing good for at the proper time we shall reap a harvest if we don't give up" Galatians 6:9

I know that this will not be a quick journey but indeed a lifelong one. I am excited for each day and as I lay my head down to sleep I thank God for bringing me through another day.  It is not easy but I know the benefit of eating healthy and taking care of myself and I want to do this. 

Today was a bit different than the other days this week.   I had more of an opportunity to indulge with the kids having pizza for dinner.  I did eat one small piece.  I knew that it would not throw me way off track since my calorie intake has been too low since I began.  I also knew that I could not dwell over the pizza and had to have a plan to help me succeed.  My plan, to make me something different and delicious that would have my kiddos saying, "Ooh can we have some."  I made a X-Large salad with cut up skillet cooked chicken breast, cheese, and dried cranberry's in it.  HERE IS A TRICK TO WATCH OUT FOR:  with those ingredients and Ranch dressing.... this salad was a whopping 550 calories.  Now, since my total calories for the day so far were only a little over 500 calories I could eat it but know, salad is not always the best thing to eat!  Once you are done adding to it it adds up and it is not all in the dressing.  Chicken, cheese, and the dried fruit had more calories each than the Ranch dressing.   So, this is one to watch for.

All in all, this was a great day.  I noticed this morning that I began to have a wanting spirit and I realized that I had not taken in any water yet.  Once I did, the craving of wanting something went away.  Hydration is important.  For me, i am choosing not to drink my calories and sticking with water.  Hot, cold, room temperature... I mix it up to make it feel like I am having something different. 
Something important to think about is the fact that though some changes come instantly, weight loss and many other changes don't.  It is a long slow process which requires that we set our eyes on the mark and end result.  We can not allow ourselves to focus on how long it is taking or how hard it is because these are the things that cause us to give up.  For me, this time around, my eye is not even focused on the mark or the end result but on God and His will for my life.  Amazing how your perspective can change.  God is the key to making it through any and every obstacle that we face so I encourage you to put whatever your task is that is set before you before God and know that in due season you shall reap if you faint not.

Be Blessed.

Day 3 of the rest of my life

"...I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content. Philippians 4:11

This has always been a goal of mine.  I encourage you to be content in the journey ahead of you where ever yours path may lead.  When God calls you to make a change, don't act as if it is punishment.  We must realize that God does have a plan for our life and we must trust Him.
This choice to lose weight is one day at a time and one change at a time.  Today took another step in my process.  I have moved from not eating junk, to eating very healthy, to counting calories, and today to evaluating and adjusting my caloric intake.  Oh did I get a surprise!  I realized today that while I am eating heartily and working hard to keep my meals low in calories that my total caloric intake is too low.  For anyone who doesn't know about weight loss and calories, when you don't get enough your body goes into starvation mode and stores fat (NOT GOOD).  My caloric intake was barely 1000 calories each day this week.  I had to adjust with some healthy additions to get my count up and still am having a difficult time reaching an acceptable count for a woman (which is listed as 1800 per day via USDA Dietary Guidelines for a woman my age).  So, I am working on healthy add-ins/snacks to fix this.  This is my challenge for today. 

There is much to think about and consider on this journey.  When will I see a difference?  How long will this really take?  Am I doing enough?  But when  these questions arise I laugh like never before because this time my focus is different.  While those are excellent questions I am choosing to seek God to lead me and I am trusting that He will do just that.

The Bible tells us that God will keep us in perfect peace if we keep our mind on Him, because we trusts in Him (Isaiah 26:3 in my words).  There is nothing like the peace of God.  Put your mind on the LORD and keep it there. 

Though change is not always easy we can make the best of it and it can be enjoyed.  I am truly enjoying this journey and sharing it makes it that much more pleasant.  Learn contentment and keep your mind on the LORD that you may have peace, as only God can give.  

God's Blessings.

Day 2 of the rest of my life

...be an example for the believers in your speech, conduct, your love, faith and purity.  Timothy 4:12 NKJ 

The above scripture portion confirms what I feel on the inside.  We are to be examples.  This decission to lose weight is being an example in conduct and in faith.  There is nothing to hard for God.  I can't tell you exactly why it took me so long to put my eating habits and health before Him.  Call it laziness, not wanting to put forth the effort, wanting the instant miracle of waking up in good health cure- this list could go on and on.  The fact is, yes God is able to all things but He grants us wisdom and we must use it.  In our life we have been given free will and we choose what we do.  We must choose to make the efforts needed to loose weight.  While I know that God will help me through this, I have to do what it takes to be healthy. 

Something that is very different about this time around.  I am not doing this to look good or because I feel bad about myself.  I am making this life change to honor God and this temple He has blessed me with that I may accomplish all that He has set me here to accomplish.  I told my weight on day one....it did not bother me to do so this time because I know on the inside that "THIS IS IT".  I am not ashamed as I love the LORD and know that His love for me is not dependent on my size or weight.  I want to take this journey with my friends and family watching so that they can be encouraged.  You have to know that there is nothing too hard to do when you truly allow God to be your focal point and that He needs to be the focal point in every area of your life.  "I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.  My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth." Psalm 121:1-2 

Thought...We plan for going out with the family, for an evening with friends, we plan what we are going to wear and many other things throughout the day. Why do we look at it as so difficult to plan what we are going to eat when this is necessary for life? So... today I took time to sit down and write out a calorie count for the things that I plan to eat for the next few days.  Doing this in advance allows me to see it on paper and make the necessary adjustments so that my caloric intake is at a reasonable level.  I am not starving myself by any means but using the benefit of things that have very little calories so that I can eat healthy, be full, and have plenty to eat. 

Here is a peak at a meal that I was blessed to make that tastes really good...
I made a large batch of "black bean yummy" (my made up recipe).  It is loaded with onion, bell peppers of all different colors, 1 can rotel, 2 can drained and rinsed black beans, and then a little salsa after it is cookedd to keep it moist.  This will last me about 6-8 days (lunch and dinner) and the entire batch is 567.5 calories.  I get a bowl full and put it on a whole wheat tortilla or eat it with 15 tortilla chips (both are 140 calories) and I have a hearty meal for only 284 calories and I am actually over calculating.  This allows room for a hearty breakfast and two healthy snacks throughout the day. Eating this way keeps me from being hungry at all. 

My goal, no matter how long it takes...100lbs!  There is not a time frame but I will continue to blog until this goal is reached.  Good days, bad days, I will share this journey with you all.   I will give weigh-in updates as I go to my family doctor (as that is where my original weight was taken at).  I will also post pictures at the end of month one and keep them coming monthly.  I pray that you are all blessed by this and encouraged in your spirit to do whatever it is that you know you need to do but have not yet put forth the effort to do.  Please remember to pray for me as I make this journey with God.

God's Blessings

Day 1 of the rest of my life

This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24

Hello everyone.  Today I am choosing not just to live for the LORD on the inside but on the outside as well.  I am choosing to take hold of my life in every aspect.  While I am a passionate Christian woman who knows that God can do all things and I trust Him doing my best to live for Him, there is one part of my life that I have not entrusted Him with.  "My weight".  Today I choose to trust Him in all things and am making the journey public.  My prayer is that others will be encouraged to do the same.

A little about me (See biography for more details).  I will be 36 this year and as many others, I have tried dieting in every facet of the word.  I have been heavy all of my life being victorious at loosing weight before having children and then watching it all reappear. (I actually remember weighing 165 in the 6th grade) I am 5ft 7 and now 276.4 lbs, which is my heaviest ever. I am not unhealthy.  My blood pressure is good and my cholesterol is also but wisdom says, "Get a hold of this now before it is too late."

Normally, I am  very active and up and going but for the last several months I have been dealing with a foot disorder of which I will be having surgery for on Friday the 23rd (less than two weeks).  I could easily use this as an excuse to not begin the process but it is time out for excuses.  It is time to be responsible for myself.  It is time to lead by example and that is what I am choosing to do. 

My plan, to begin by eating right today making no excuses for what I don't have and can't afford.  I will make adjustment and changes as God leads me.  We all hear that voice say, "you don't need that" or my favorite "you know you will feel bad if you eat that".  You know, the voice that we ignore.  I will let Holy spirit guide me and obey.  I will  do exercise daily with my upper body and on my knees until such time as my feet can join the journey me.  I will seek God every step of the way and I will blog about it often.  I will continue this journey one day at a time for as long as it takes to reach my goal.  Once I have reached my 100lb goal it is my prayer that many others will have made the commitment as well. 

See the funny part is, the Lord has shown me how to eat for my body that I can be full and enjoy food but I did it for a while and stopped.  While what God has shown me works for me, it may not be what works for you but I encourage you to find what does. 

I will be eating more protein and vegetables and less meats, flour products, and white sugar.  I will sweeten with small amounts of honey or brown sugar.  I will get protein in other ways outside of eating just meat.  Eggs, protein shakes, and beans are all great sources of protein and they make me feel good when I eat them. So this is where I will begin.

Today, I am working from home.  I have eaten oatmeal with raisins added for breakfast with a nice fresh cup of water.  I then had 3 boiled egg whites throughout the morning.  I am going to later have a whole wheat tortilla with black beans, bell peppers and salsa in it (Yummy).  I will eat another black bean tortilla for dinner. 

Often times, people are depressed and ashamed of them self when they gain weight.  God taught me to love myself a long time ago through a series of Biblical lessons (hoping to post these soon so that you can build yourselves with the word of God and be empowered).  It was in realizing who and whose I am that I found victory in this area.  I am so glad that I learned that lesson and pray that each individual that takes time out to read this blog comes to the same revelation. 

I am not giving myself a time limit.  Day by day, moment by moment, great days, bad days, everyday with the help of the the Lord.  This journey will not be easy but I know that God is with me and am choosing to change.  I am very excited! I will keep you posted!